Woot woot

It has been quite some time. holiday is over. not fruitful at all. but of coz...tonnes of relaxation. not that i am stress with my work or studies anyway. looking forward for the coming weeks ahead. waiting replies for my summer vacation. targeting 2 and hopefully get one. not that i worried anyway. just dunno why. perhaps if i don't get, i just look for other engineering companies for casual job. just want to get it over and done with. don't want to delay anymore.

There are a lot of things i wondering about at the moment. but of course, things will be fine soon i hope. but then, felt as if dragging myself away from the crowd, or people. just finding time for myself and be alone. Cut off all communication and stay under a coconut shell, not willing to know the truth and not willing to learn bout the truth. that's how i feel now.

today gonna be a long day. hope i survive it.

有故事的人

many ppl wonder where does YKSDR comes from? interestin topic indeed. YKSDR is originated from a song. and i love this song since i was young. the title is"有故事的人", which i tot it was you ku shi de ren, which actually is you gu shi de ren. last time, i was too young. i din knw bout it obviously becoz i din learn chinese. i just translate it the way i tot it is. why i like dat title? becoz i love telling story, either my life or others. A person with a story. cool huh? name fit for an old man. =p

but as i grew up, i began to realise the significance about this YKSDR. i began to use it even more often becoz to me, it is indeed very meaningful. everyone has his own story to tell. And memories and history are indeed things that you can never be bought by money. you can never turn back time as well. and stories are very useful in the future. perhaps when one day u look back to ur past, you know how much u have grown. or rather when u look back, u knw God is there to help u out. and as pictures are linked together, you can see the path that u are walking and the direction that God is leading you to. it is an interesting journey indeed.

That is the reason why i actually interested go into photography. perhaps some ppl tot i m crazy. it doesn't matter how ppl think. but i have goal and aim. and i would want to achieve them. Perhaps 有故事的人 is linked to my passion in photography as well. this is one of the way i can capture the stories of ppl and perhaps one day when we look back, we can laugh and smile at the funny things that we do, and so on. I don't mind spending dat amount of money for my interest. it is in order to preserve the memories of others. i nvr regret spending that amount for this. we can see how God works thru us and in us as a family, and many ppl can see this thru pics. weddings, uniting not only two ppl together, but familes as well. events, birthdays celebration and so on. we are one whole body and we know it very well. pics can capture sad and happy moment. regardless of wat, when we look back, we know that we persevere until today and we are indeed different. each piece of memory contribute to complete the whole pic of us today. and the pics is still in the process of accumulation from time to time. these pics made us today, becoz God has given us those memories. I am just capturing it bit by bit to help others to see and realise it.

Here is the lyrics of the song that i like:

有故事的人

走著　忍著　醒著　想著　看愛情悄悄近了
冷的　暖的　甜的　苦的　在心裡纏繞成河
曲折的心情有人懂　怎麼能不感動
幾乎忘了昨日的種種　開始又敢作夢

我決定不躲了　你決定不怕了
我們決定了讓愛像綠草原滋長著
天地遼闊　相遇多難得　都是有故事的人才聽懂心裡的歌
我決定不躲了　你決定不怕了　就算下一秒坎坷這一秒是快樂的
曾經交心就非常值得　我要專注愛你　不想別的　沒有忐忑

曲折的心情有人懂　怎麼能不感動
幾乎忘了昨日的種種　開始又敢作夢

我決定不躲了　你決定不怕了
我們決定了讓愛像綠草原滋長著
天地遼闊　相遇多難得　都是有故事的人才聽懂心裡的歌
我決定不躲了　你決定不怕了　就算下一秒坎坷這一秒是快樂的
曾經交心就非常值得　我要專注愛你　不想別的　

我決定不躲了　你決定不怕了
我們決定了讓愛像綠草原滋長著
天地遼闊　相遇多難得　都是有故事的人才聽懂心裡的歌
我決定不躲了　你決定不怕了　就算下一秒坎坷這一秒是快樂的
曾經交心就非常值得 　我要專注愛你　不想別的　沒有忐忑

I decided not to be afraid anymore. I decided not to avoid anymore. no point. I realise life is quite short. and there is a lot of things i need to do. no longer will i wanna try to use my own strength to deal with things. I need You and i will continue to pray. it doesn't matter if i get it or not, but i rather be obedient and wait for the right timing rather than forcing it. it's gonna be tough, but i will try

Help me... I m in need

It has come to this point of time whereby i really i need of direction and help. Perhaps at this point of time, i realise i have been trying very hard to achieve things with my own strength, desperately. and when i stop and think back, i knew why i acted impatiently and without thinking twice.

I have been acting like a lone warrior fighting a battle with an army that only consist of me alone. I grew desperate at times for direction till the extent that i tried to make my own way thru regardless of wat. I am bias to one side and i m no longer being as wise as before.

it comes to this point of realization that I have not being doing wat i planned to do. Letting my feeling judge everything is not wat i wanted. I fail to see the bigger pics and i can't let this take over anymore. i will continue to pray for Your help and i will try to be patient. I struggled internally.

I guess watever i tried to pursue with my own strength no longer important. i guess i lost sight of wat is more important. I can't let it influence me anymore.



at the mean time, i m hunting for a good lens for Ian's and Ivy's deng deng deng deng. But it's hard. trying my best to get one. It will be a memorable one. ^_^

I wish both of you all the best..... same goes to you both. You have found your true one. Congratulations. Cherish it with all your heart

I pray, You lead

I felt a gentle stream of relief
things are moving on
I remain stagnant
things are changing,
yet I remain unchanged
things are as predicted before seperation

Seen the history leading to the present
and perhaps future
and yet, I am still here
Courage, determination and strength
is like the dew on the window
seen but unreachable
so close but never close enough

Smile is still evident
gladness and relief
and i need a step
steps to move on
to pursue what perhaps is seen
perhaps it is true
I shall pray
You lead me

Day OFF!!

It is a day off. woot woot. i m so glad having a day off. can do my assignment n stuff. hehe.

Oh... my flash arrived 2 or 3 weeks ago. i so in love with my flash. it is so cool. It is better than wat i expected. haha. yes. must try to improve my skills. haha...

mayb i can be a photographer after all. no need to do other stuff huh. haha. i can sell tau foo fa also. ahha. can also be engineer. this is so cool. haha. won't be jobless gua. haha.

i met my lecturer the other day and he recommended me to the person in charge of the vacation scholarship. So interesting. I tot he gonna persecute me. becoz his name is like from arab ma. who knows, he is a catholic i think. haha. i went to his room and saw the pic of Jesus, i was amazed. haha. and he is so friendly and helpful. i m glad i actually take the courage to meet him. he even talked to me about the things he taught us in class and quite interesting. hehe..

WOOT WOOT!!!

Yet another night....

It is yet another night
another night that seems too long
but at the same time, never wishes it to end
A Song is on my mind.... a song of thousand truth
Pictures after pictures..... smiles after smiles.... tears after tears....
Repeating itself one after another

Stream of flowing river surged from the peak of the round mountain
awakens the lives within it
that was asleep throughout the day
It is yet another night....
another night that everything comes to life
It is yet another night....
another night that lightning strikes twice
It is yet another night....

Oh OH...@@

Wow...it is in VIC now....Derrimut...

On FedEx vehicle for delivery

^0^

so so happy.....lalalalalala.....come come to me...

Near...its so near

ahhhh... i can sense ur presence now...hahaha.... it is so near... sydney. hmmmm... monday..probably on monday and i shall wait for u... =p

on a side note...this week was so so so so so so happening for me. so many things but yet so fun. haha. i nvr felt everything so smooth like this week before. the test wasn't dat bad. managed to get full mark and complete within 20 min. praise God. i dunno why i can do that so fast anyway. haha. perhaps this is something that i like or rather that i find dun need memorizing. just logic sense and proficiency in that. heh heh. Perhaps excitement is what i need.

Then on tuesday, my one of the most fearful day. becoz of one lab, this lab called sensor and artificial perception thingy...the aim of the lab is to achieve to aim. haha. basically u were given some components, no circuit diagram...so basically it is like given Lego but not the method to make something. so, u were supposed to use ur creativity and knowledge to build a circuit urself and get the result needed. this lab is for 2 weeks. and amazingly, we gotten our result within 1 hour. haha. it was pretty easy. not much struggle apart from understanding wat to do in the first place. getting started always hard becoz u dunno wat to do. u look around n see wat ppl do then only u do. anyway...i found out dat the ppl in malaysia doing same subject got their circuit from the tutor. and they can complete within 1 WEEK!!! wow...dats unfair. nvm. we will get the circuit design from them from now on. hahahahaha....

thursday tutorial is also one of the toughest one. this contol and modelling thingy. seems easy but dunno how to start. but it all end up good this week. hehe.. now, time to strive for next week. and this weekend GONNA BE SO SO SO SO INTERESTING!!!

SB-800

Woot woot... my flash is coming. excited to try it out. can't wait. it's on the way. now, it is in Egypt. hahahaha. according to the FEDex tracking thingy, it in MEMPHIS. hahaha. i tot it is EGYPT. and i was curious. MEMPHIS, TN. wat is TN? then i go and search google map then i knw, it is still in US. hahahaha.. funny indeed. oh well.... expected delivery at 31 August. faster come.. hehe

ABCDE

Hmmm..... i have been wondering after awhile. i dun seem to be the same person like before. i used to be very hardworking and used to be able to study very hard. but now i have been slacking a lot. i think it was during SAM. haha. i still rmb how i actually gave up studying thinking dat no point becoz so many good students. haha. i guess this have to change. and i think there is a lot more that i need to change. my mindset

i have this fear in me...fear to hurt others. fear to hurt ppl's feeling. fear to make ppl sad or disappointed. and at times when i actually did dat or rather i feel dat i did dat, i really blame myself and i really put a lot of pressure upon myself. it is like bearing everything upon my very own shoulder and keep everything to myself. not letting others no fearing that i will hurt them i return for letting them know, as ppl will tend to care and concern. I have this mindset that it is better to bear everything in myself rather than letting others know. then, i won't risk hurting them and in return, blaming myself for it. no matter how hard it is, i tried to bear everything. and i think this mindset of keeping everything to myself actually influence my decision in all circumstances and situations.

in a sense, i tend to put on a mask and everything seem fine. and in the end, even i lied to myself. the truth is even hidden from my sight. and i don't realise it till i actually throw every thing aside and start to meditate and think about it. here is wat i learnt from combined CT meeting just ystdy

A - activation of event. When something happen....
B - believe. when something happen, we tend to create a mindset or start to assume things
C - Consequential emotions. then, watever that we feel will be affected by wat we believe
D - Dispute lies. we need to remove the lies or rather the things that is not right from our mind
E - effect. what is the effect of the removing of the virus?

i think this is a very good lesson indeed. and i think i was reminded by the fact that i need to start renewing my mind and myself. Let's start over again from a piece of white A4 paper.

many times watever that we do, most the time is because of wat is in our mind. sometimes we have concluded in our mind that this person cannot be helped, therefore we dun even bother to help the person. it can be as simple as when i was a kid, i hated mushroom and that mindset continues until i grew older. from that time onwards, i refuse to take mushroom until one day i was forced to eat it, and then i impression changes. it is not dat bad after all. n i think there is a lot of us are being ctrlled by our past too much, either the lies or the false mindset. there is a need to start anew.

^.^

Hmmm...wat is next??

Been experimenting on my camera for quite some time. so happy. hehe. thinking of getting something next. a new lens? or flash? haha. no idea. but i tried putting in my mum's old flash and wow...i can use it. canon flash on nikon camera. but of coz, dat flash is super old lo. haha. very very old. but i like the sound of it when it is charging up. hahaha. but slow le. thinking of something interesting next. hehe..

at the mean time, MCF and pasta night is over. phew...a tiring week indeed. i nvr made so so so so so much tau foo fa before in my whole life. i think first day we use about 4 kg of soya bean, and the second day is 3 kg. haha. we earn quite a lot but yeah...very hard to sell. wat to do..it is winter and my tau foo fa need to remain cold. haha. but got a lot of ppl that like my tau foo fa. the last day is the best. the soften and the smoothest i would say. haha. we also sell onde onde, cambodian dessert and soya bean milk.

pasta night...a lot of ppl turn up. beyond my expectation. haha. interesting day indeed.

hmmmm..i should post some pics here. here i present, pasta night and MCF!!!

Preparation the night before Pasta Night

a lot a lot of pasta....

look at the amount of ppl

Oh my...hugging one another??

looks like we have a promoter

MCF!!!!

80 Tau foo fa here

Our counter

Our Tau foo fa the best

It has ended

It has ended... after almost 3 years. Things have changed. I still rmb how it began, how it prolong, how it lasted. I still rmb the things that were done, things that happened in between. they all remain as memories. memories of the past, but hope for the future. There is no nid to explain, coz it is pointless. there is not a need to understand everything, because it has come to this point whereby things are hard to perceive. we probably can never und the whole thing. but my wish is that there will be a better future, a hope that never dim. I wish for a greater blessing upon you. i know probably this doesn't mean anything, but this is wat i wish for. there is a reason for everything, and i have yet to find out. i always believe that. and i will continue seek for an answer.

Nikon D5000

Woot woot... gotten my new D5000. so happy with it. hehe. can play and take a lot of pics with it. hehe. it cost me AUD1100 with bag, 18-55mm lens, UV filter, polaroid filter, extra battery. yay!! this is so cool. but i want d90. oh well...play with this first. then slowly slowly build up. my bro suddenly wanted a DSLR as well. so interesting. i asked him and he said that he seen his fren took pics very nice. haha. from now on, the virus will slowly spread. hahaha... slowly learning bit by bit how to use this camera. i chuck the manual aside and just experiment with it. haha. this is so interesting. mayb i should put some pics here as samples. hehe

Updates updates

It has been quite some time since i blogged. haha. hmmm...counting the days, it's only 7 days of my holidays. i nvr know time passes by so slow. Oh well... internet broke down and running very very slow and i can't load a lot of pages. so, i din even bother to check blogs and write anything.

I will be going adelaide from tmr till 13th. going on a road trip to kangaroo island where all the kangaroos will see me. lol.

hmmm.... in the first place, i m actually interested in getting this nikon d90 camera. thinking and considering the fact that it is AUD500 more expensive compared to the Nikon d5000, well i will settle with d5000. Don't think i can vomit out dat AUD500 for much better camera. lol.

well, this will be starting point and there will be better camera out there dat will follow this master next time, so, be patient. lol.

getting cough and dunno wat other illness will fall upon me. haha. oh well, i should enjoy. mayb i got it from someone. so sudden sick. just this very morning. haha.

and oh yah, i m applying for industrial training. need to complete my resume soon. gonna be a busy holiday with my new camera hoping to arrive here in melb. i better decide soon ^_^

Exam time to day dreaming... i m taking over the world

exam is going on. for me...i m more on FB game to release stress. lol. but one down, 3 more to go. spending time in com lab to study. why i go com lab? they have just started construction at the empty land near my house. no more shortcut, and noise increase daily. lol. so, have to seek refuge in com lab. hehe. good also le. faster conenction. dunno why the connection suddenly exceeded. RAWR. oh well... happen not timely. no idea wat happened. wanna look for important things also hard.

24th is coming soon, and a VIP is coming. need to prepare for her coming. and come timely as well. can take care of me, the VVIP. LOL!! at the same time, this VIP is enjoying her holiday. no more exam n i juz only done one paper, she done 5!! hmmmmppphhh.... nvm... muz make full use of ppl without exam. >.<

atm, destressing by playing FB a lot. even my sister ask me to stop (her real intention is so dat she can beat me in dat game. lol. not sincere to stop me also) haha...

one tough paper coming up, computing. programming n so on. theory more, which is wat i dun really like as well. oh well....better than writing the code =p

but i really was amazed and happy when i do tutorial questions and past year, i began to understand wat is going on and wat i was "supposed" to be learning for 12 weeks =p

for the first paper, i did reading and finished it 2 days before my exam. and then, i did tutorial. my fren was asking me, why now only u start. quite late. i was like, are u serious. and they said, it takes me 4-5 weeks to finish up n understand the tutorial. i was like T_T and demoralized. no peace at heart and feel like knocking my head on the wall. but it's okie. although felt very restless, i managed to finish it within 1.5 days. hahahaha. so happy. i at last understand a lot of stuff that i was supposed to knw. hahahaha. it is like miracles. ^_^
dats why i hate studying in the beginning, doing something u dunno and dun und. and u dun find the relevance in studying dat.

oh... i have tot of this thingy about studying. we students study a lot and watever we study, MOST PROBABLY not applicable in ur future career. haha. well, wat is the meaning of studying dat way, taking exam and scoring high and not using it in the future. haha. when i think about it, unless i want to teach and be a lecturer, then i will continue my studies. but since i realise this, no point of me continuing. i dun wanna study. and of coz, i dun wanna waste time. i dun wanna be the person who waste ppl's time (students who will eventually understood my theory) as well. haha. so, i dun think i wanna do master or PHD. really waste of time eh. why education system is like dat? like, not really applicable. not application wise. not a good lesson. cannot apply in real life. if only there is more practical, like doing REAL stuff. haha. oh well... i can always sell tau foo fa and some other stuff =P

this degree perhaps as a backup plan for me. hahahaha. then soon, we will see Calvin's Dessert House operating all over Clayton, Glen Waverley and some say in Caufield. hahahahaha.... i will make tortoise as mascott. then my degree is really wasted. my mum said this to me when i actually suggesting to her wat i plan to do, "u crazy ar? go n waste ur time get this degree and then go into business field". i was telling her if i fail in business, at least i got this degree. haha. can go and work in engineering field again. who knows, mayb i earn enuf can own Petronas or watsoever engineering company. ^_^ then i can take over the world

starting from Calvin's Dessert House to engineering company, then make GUNDAMs and robots, then take over the world. wahahahahahahahahaha.... ^_^ such a good dream shall not be thrown into dustbin. hehe...

Tough Choice

I have to make a very tough choice, a choice that many might not even take or consider. It really up to me now. It is tough making that decision, because it will change my lifestyle from now on, giving up on things that don't build myself up or rather giving up on things that is worthless now. Prioritizing on the things i need to do.

this is rather hard. asking myself to give up something i desire so much to do, but i knw, i need to make that choice and be firm and stand still. A lot of time has been wasted, i dun want to waste time anymore. better to make full use of it. better to focus on the right thing. It is hard but i will give it a try. It is painful sometimes when u feel dat nobody understands u. one of my friend say this to me, "you are just like a clam, hard outside, but inside soft". but i tell her, i don't want clam. i don't like eating those kinda thing. haha. i tell her, i would prefer being a lobster, rare, unique and expensive. a lobster that sometimes suffocate himself with that two "pliers" thingy on his hand.

at this point of time, i will just give it a try. well, i wanna deny myself from my selfish desire and put it into better use of my time. Rather enjoy doing what is good rather than enjoy wasting time. haha. okie. time to be more efficient. And i m trying my best now. I might be stuborn, but let's not demoralized me now =p but continue to remind me of what is my main focus n purpose. and we shall see how it goes from now on, k? thanks darling for reminding me of what i need to do. although it is painful to realise this, but i know, i eventually need to think n decide for balance and greater good.

I know many are struggling as well at this point of time. And i believe it is not easy time as well. just want to encourage you all not to surrender and give up. let's work together to achieve our goal ^__^

Ahhhhh...don't do it... don't kill yourself!!

Hmmmm.. rather an interesting way of committing suicide. guys and gals, don't let potato to break your heart. This is what happen to someone who actually fought with potato for breaking her heart. she got upset n cut herself. evidence are as below:

The blood flows non stop. we tried putting pressure, no use. tried using salt water, no use as well (old traditional method i use to stop bleeding every time i pull off my teeth using string --> traditional method as well =p ). use ice - well...a better choice. at least the blood slows down. and for the victim, you better go n check with doctor why your platelet forms so slow. it is quite abnormal to flow overnight. haha.

and for small kids out there, don't follow this silly girl's action. very unwise and funny. haha...

Ridiculously a lot!!!

This is rather interesting. Me n my household went to Victoria and Janine's place for dinner (27/4/2009). Bah Kut Teh wor. haha. when i enter, i notice this funny thing. each of them have a very big fridge. i wonder how one person can use all. at first i thought their house is a storeroom for their owner who do fridge business. as if their house is a showroom. haha. don't believe me? it's rather amusing to me to see such thing. haha

This is so funny. haha... fridges for sale... pm me if you need one. ahahaha

Most Beautiful.....

How beautiful it is to see relationship blossom and grow. We have witness many relationship, been taken for granted, broken and destroyed due to certain reason. Whatever it is, it is always important to cherish the thing you have, the people around you, the things around you becoz things might not last long. Every person in your life, no matter what they have done, it is always good to cherish them. Perhaps one day you will realise that you should have talk to that person and get to know him or her mor, but it's too late. Now is the time to make changes.

We always say, love is blind, love is painful. but i think, as i see these pictures, i see great and tremendous joy in these ppl's lives. Relationship is not all about self-seeking desire. The world might tell you that you should expect something from a relationship, but i think relationship is defined dat way is so shallow and so ugly. have you ever thought that what people normally say might be wrong? Relationship is not to achieve our own selfish need, our own aim and goal, but relationship is more than that.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Relationship is making one more effective. 1+1 >= 3 . In a sense, relationship is always building up, and not destroying. We need to aim for that. continue to sow seed and continue to encourage one another. working together, as frens, as special fren, or watsoever. it has beautiful memories implanted in ur mind. these memories serve as part of who you are, part of the tiny little things that somehow shape you into who you are today. don't you think so? your life, your whole life is related to relationship. God, family, friends, neighbours, colleague and so on.

In a relationship, there is always ups and downs, disappointment, hurt and suffering. but i think there is even a greater need for us to forgive and let go and not letting our past hurts and disappointment to dictate what we do and how we think now. we need to be refreshed, grow stronger, and able to stand up once again - transformed into a better person. Start to forgive others, letting go of your past to receive new blessings in life.

Relationship is indeed a blissful thing that we should cherish and taking every opportunity to sow into ppl's lives.

I went to a wedding recently, a month ago. And looking at the people around me, i notice a lot of things and began to think of what is relationship is all about. Indeed, it is so beautiful no matter how it turn out. If it turn out bad, it's okie. Look ahead, the future and present is what matter most. When you look back into your past, you will know everything happen for a reason. and the reason perhaps have been revealed to you, or perhaps haven't. have hope and continue to persevere. Don't give up on the most beautiful thing on Earth

Wisdom

I have seen so many things. but at times, i dun realise that i m repeating wat others did even though i knw it is wrong. sometimes, i felt that i need to be strong and firm in what i do.

heart is most the time deceitful. when desire and temptation arise, it becomes dangerous. i need to always remain in check with what i do, and remain calm, not be distracted by emotion, and not follow the heart 100%, but remain focus one one thing that i believe and hold strongly in.

look at bigger picture and not too focus on ur problems. let not ur problems stop u but u need to be aware of the things that needed to be done. so long u are conscious of the things around u, u can plan ahead and be prepared for the storm. even if u aren't prepared, always have the element of trust, hope and faith that everything will turn out well. hope and faith can leads to joy and peace at heart.

I have finally found back my path that i long for n i plan to walk it and stick to it. i dun wanna let stress and problems take control, neither do i want my heart emotion to take control. flow with the spirit. dats more like it. haha. it doesn;t matter how big the responsibility is, but i juz wanna do the best, remain focus. >.<

i have many challenges ahead. I shall remain strong no matter wat it takes.

Guardian

I have watched, i have seen
I have observed, i have spoken
and now, i shall still be the guardian

there is fire, there is rain, there is storm
there is a bit of everything
chaos, unrest, suffering and pain
but yet, my heart shall remain calm and peaceful

i can't let the darkness prevail
even with only a dim of light
i shall drive them back
i shall call upon the horn
assembling my brethrens
and we shall defend the fortress with our might and strength
and the power that is given to us
from heaven afar

this shall be a day to remember

My thought

Hmmm.... things is began to make sense to me now. i began to see the bigger pic of everything that happened. i began to realised every thing that is being revealed to me. And i have the desire and passion to see that things get better and everyone is set free from it.

I need wisdom, i need wisdom to handle these things. i m not perfect. that's what i want ppl to knw. i am someone who can help u, and u must realise that i m just like all of u. i m not special in the sense that i m better than u, but i want to be equal with u to share ur problems, and help u in one way or another. and i believe every good seed that is planted in u, will eventually grow into fruitfulness. I will be patient, and i will pray.

I know wat should be done now. And i kept asking for patience and wisdom to help me. i need help from higher authority. I believe nothing is impossible. i will be strong and courageous in facing the future. for there is hope, there is light at the end of the road.

Hope

It got me to think as i am walking on the street at night. i see things dat i nvr realise. It seems as if God reveals to me the thing in my mind. we always associate troubles, pain and suffering to darkness. but as i look at the dark sky, i notice the stars and moon. it got me to think. the stars and moon resemble the hope that we have. they are tiny but they are significant. same apply to our lives. we face problems and troubles in our lives. but when we are in those situation, we normally will think negatively and hence, focus on the darkness. but if we actually in a state of calm, we can see the hope and began to grasp hold of the hope that can sustain us.

There is always hope in every situation. There is always a way out. and i find it interesting to know how this form a pattern similar to our daily lives.

Circumstances also taught us to be able to recognize hope and know what hope truly is. it gave me the ability to see things in bigger pic instead of focusing all on darkness and on the problem itself. hope are significantly insignificant. but we can see them easily if we have the right heart to do so.

and thru every circumstances, we become more mature, wiser. I am amazed to see how ppl actually changed into a better person by the problems and situation they were in.

There is always hope. do not despair when u see dead end. perhaps there is a secret passage. do not worry and think too much. there is always something to rejoice on. therefore, always rejoice for things aren't that bad after all

"Grasping upon the very hope that will shudder every inch of darkness" -Calvin-

on the side note, i felt lonely. lonely in the sense very hard to find true support i needed. perhaps it is juz me who bears everything on my own. oh well.. i do not knw. it is hard at times. but i will try to share more.

p/s: heh heh.. room is so messy. n i fallen ill. severe headache. i shall procrastinate from cleaning it up, for now =P

Wisdom

Wisdom is something i sought for this year. It is my goal. Wisdom is nvr easy. times like this, i began to think if i m being wise. sometimes, it's just dat i knw wat is right but i did not do it. i fell and follow my heart to do things i desire the most, though the result is something dat i knw would happen, but yet.... i still go for it. It is not easy at times. and sometimes, there is a price to pay for ur action. and today, i felt quite moody a bit. there is so much to be done. sometimes, too much till u do not knw where to start.

I gone all out and neglecting myself at times. gone all out till i actually fail to see clearly. or rather, fail to see the whole pic. there is a price to pay sometimes. and sometimes, there is reward. It brings me back to this perspective to think and be wise in action. but most of the time, i regard the things i done as investment, either into ppl's life or my own life. but this investment is something dat i dun wanna expect return, in the way of reward. I somehow believe through geniune heart, things can change, n i began to see that. i m glad to be able to know it and see it for myself.

and i always remind myself, to not too focus on first-person view point. to hard to see that way. and i m trying hard to improve myself day by day, thru the challenges and thru the things i done. Evaluate and perhaps can do better another time.

Passion and Focus

It's getting busier day by day. more things to focus on and more things to deal with. I began to realise the power of focusing. We tend to magnify our problem, and began to lose sight of our hope, our destiny and the straight path. Everytime we deal with problem, we tend to enlarge them. This sometimes causes no peace at heart. everything seems to not be the way we wanted. haywire here and there. chaotic feeling rising. it also causes us to unable to be wise in making decision.

then, another thing in our heart, we tend to rely on ourselves, on our own heart. That's where temptation arise due to ur desire. I began to trust and believe nothing is impossible. there is always hope because there is a higher authority in charge. I began to see hope each day. I began to see the fruit of the genuine heart of mine. i began to see the strength and power i could draw from hope. and indeed, hope gave me the strength to go on each day, expecting to see the sun rise again, expecting to see smiles and laughter and joy, peace and love.

I want to be passionate and desire for the greater good. I shall contnue to focus and concentrate. Never lose hope, coz u will always be able to see sun tmr. anticipate that, hold on to that, and strife for the future, for our future.

Have been very busy recently. but i am still surviving. i m just glad that i m still alive. haha. have been not really well. headache and weak leg. haha. but oh well... guess need to drink more water?? haha

tmr is a trip to mornington peninsula. can't wait for tmr. anticipating for tmr. hopefully everything turn out really really well

hmmmm...??

sometimes we thought life is so simple. but it wasn't as simple as it seems sometimes. i mean, there are tough choice, there are tough decision. at the point of them when u do not knw wat to do, u really out of idea and stunned. sometimes, things seems too extreme to be true but it can be true. just dat we dun think it can happen on us coz the possibility is so low.

at this point of time, yeap... i do not knw wat can i do now. i m deciding the best choice. wiser thinking is needed here. prayer is the best choice i can make now. going all out for those people is sometimes is not easy. sometimes it is not juz giving all out, but need wisdom as well. we can't simply do wat we wanna do but sometimes, there is a need to consider every circumstances and steps that is made. it is not easy at all. i m not giving up hope. i knew that this is a life and this is an investmate. good seed must grow, and we need to water these good seed till it become mature and strong enuf to withstand the strong wind.

Misplaced object

This is found in a supermarket. This item is misplaced. i wonder since when they have new brand called Ayam Brand. Wahahahhahaha... can use tuna sardin. hahahaha... Funny

Using Astonish on Car??

The other day, during dunno which day of CNY, went to my friend house to wash his car wor. Haha.. wash a new Myvi. And the owner of the car (Kevin Wee) have no experience in washing car and don't knw wat to do la. hahaha. But then luckily his dad help and gave him all the equipment. oh... and he is quite perfectionist. hahaha. want the car nice nice and really REALLY CLEAN!!!

oh well.. i guess i can bear with that. hahaha. so we ma wash clean clean lo. help him scrub off some dirty parts. then behind the car there, got one stain cannot be removed. so, he was complaining to his dad saying that got one part cannot wash.


here is the exciting conversation:

Kevin: D, got a stain at the back here. cannot wash one
Kevin's dad: aiyah. a little bit stain nvm one. no body will see
Kevin: got ar. me lo. i will everyday go to the back n look at the stain lo

Kevin's dad gave up and go in and bring out something and spray spray at that part

Kevin: Eh.. still cannot clean eh. D, do you still rmb that time ma use the thing to clean. very keng one.

then, he found a magical housecleaning agent, called Astonish.

Me: eh. this one can ar?
Kevin: can. can clean a lot of things.

Read the instruction and apply on that part.

Kevin: wah. keng. can clean liao. if i use this on the whole car even better. sure clean. no nid use soap and water. hahaha..
Calvin: eh.. i think the paint came out eh. got this thing like round round shape one
Kevin: no la. this one last time also like dat.
Calvin: Don't believe me? why not u try on other spot? come. let's try this part.
Kevin: I used this before la. don't worry

He really tried on another spot.

Kevin: Neh.. nothing happen

He began rubbing that part with tissue paper.

Calvin: Nah..u see.. the paint also came off. look at your tissue la.
Kevin: eh...last time nth happen one? i put a lot ar?
Calvin: hahaha.. r i g h t.. where is the spot u clean last time?
Kevin: neh.. there lo (pointing)
Calvin: (checking) eh...see... got a scar here. round round one.
Kevin: .......
Calvin: If next time you use this on your whole car what will happen le? your whole car also no color. paint also hilang


hahaha.. have a look at the part. quite blur. but u can notice the scar. good experience huh?


Moral of the story is: Never use some kind of house cleaning agent on your car. lol.

Left 4 Dead

I wonder why ppl shouted when they play this game. haha. i remember my friend Eugene played this game and shouted like mad. haha. and i never know until i actually touch the game. haha. it was super exciting. haha. suddenly a bunch of thing appear and run after u. a bunch of thing here refer to zombies. haha.

they appear out of no where. creepy huh? juz like resident evil but these zombies are faster and smarter (if controlled by human). hehe.

there are 4 type of zombies you can control

1) The boomer
this one a bit useless. hard to control. slow fat guy. very disgusting too. but actually, quite good. haha. the vomit can blind ppl and also can attract lots of zombies. haha. so, useful when someone is down.

2) The smoker
this one is a creature that can act like frog. haha. use his long tongue and grab someone close to him. just like Butcher. haha. then slowly attack the person

3) The hunter
This one is my fav. first time i play can kill someone. hehe. this one is also like a frog. jump here jump there, grab ppl and attack like crazy. haha. very disgusting a little bit when u see the person got attack. all the blood splash here and there. haha

4) The tank
this one is spawn randomly. dunno how one. but very strong. super strong. the name says it all. haha. super tank. can throw things to stun ppl one. very chun

it was fun killing ppl and trying to do so. it was fun guys. >.<

Monkeys create havoc in WM

Operation Sri Kenangan..... 20 Jan 2009, 11.30am

We reach randezvous point. Waiting for air strike. We waited and waited and waited. 2 of our comrade carrying a burden with them, two children. they are hungry and tired. we need to win this war. this enemy are smart, but we are more cunning. we are more agile. we need to wait in ambush.

Our captain infiltrated the barrack in third floor. he surveyed the place and found the package. the package is obtained and he call in air strike.

Bomb.. haha.. back to real life. my mum shouted. OMGness. What is that sound. then she look out of her window and saw a loaf of bread on the blood behind our house. She was wondering who threw it down. In a few seconds, a monkey rushed down and picked up the "package" and ran up the hill and regroup with other monkeys. indeed, their operation is sucessful. heh heh..


here is one monkey


a bunch of them


Here is how the spy escaped

This is the reason why the boss can faint when he see the form filled by the interviewer.

Name: Ah Boy
Age: Still young
Sex: Never. Still under age
Religion: I only have experience praying my cat who dead 2 years before
Race: I love to race, how you know?
Nationality: I don't like National, I prefer Sanyo
IC Number: 6735
Telephone number: House no telephone
Hand phone number: 3310
Address: Penang Jelutong
City : Nor Haliza?
Postcode: I never post anything
State: In my family, I am 2^nd
Country: I love to travel to Canada
Marriage status: Secret
Email Address: Hotmail
Education Background: My teacher said not bad
Working experience: Last time got sell pirated VCD

Father's name: Daddy
Father's IC: You ask him
Mother's name: Mummy
Mother's IC: You ask her

Current Salary: Depends on my daddy mood
Expected Salary: As much as you can pay
When can start work: Depends on my mood

Highest qualification: Ya, very high
Grade: Ya, very high
College/University: College
Signature: Can I use chop?

Amusing stuff in high class shopping complex

Hehe. I find it rather amusing to find something jutting out from the ground at the shopping complex in bukit bintang. hahah. it is quite funny. have a look:


Can't see clearly what it is? come and have a closer look:


can u see what it is now? hahah. there is a pipe here and it really amuse me. i wonder what they wanna do with it? and the shape of the cutting of the floor is round. are they trying to put the flower pot to fit the hole but can't because something is jutting out from the hole? heh heh. interesting eh? hahah....nice round hole but can't fit the flower pot =p

Boxing game

Haha.. i find this rather amusing. haha.. This two ppl are crazy. hahah.. love them when they do such thingy. haha. here is the video of two guy (Eugene and Koh) boxing each other and both of them are drunk i assume. Half cup of vodka will have such effect on both of them.

Lesson to learn: Never box and drunk. haha... bad things will happen. u will be exposed to the public. heh heh heh

Delays!!

Have u heard of fire in airport and causes plane to delay for 3 hours? yeah. i have. hahaha...

sort of funny dat air asia got delayed because of fire alarm. i tot prank like playing with fire alarm only happen in the MRS. heh heh heh. I wonder if there is any drunk ppl at the airport accidently smash the fire alarm button. haha. mayb ST did dat. hahaha. who knows. she is drunk in love. hahaha..

this reminds me of drunken master, one of the movie that jackie chan act in. lol. or mayb Panda Brewmaster in DOTA. hahaha.. "I bring pandamonium". his name sounds a little bit like padawan from star wars. hehehe..

OH well... 5 more hours to go.
T-T

Rawring

Getting this cbox is so irritating. add here and there and it dun seem to work. i hate doing this and wasting my time. ahha. but anyway...got it done and hopefully my joy will last for awhile. lol

Lalalala....

I am starting to blog again. i wonder how long it will last? hmmm.. oh well, see how it goes le. haha.

I have gotten a new msn. the new one. quite irritating a bit coz it is new. not really used to it. haha. a bit crappy. oh well...i shall see what it can do. ahha. my fren showed me some cool stuff. haha. it can show animation. i wanna try dat too. heh heh....

oh.. and my darling coming tmr.. can't wait to see her. heh heh... dun wanna show u the tortoises. heh heh...

Monash uni pre departure juz ended. weee... got to know so many people. heh heh.

i ate lots of durian the other day. haha. feel like wanna eat more. hahah. but i heard from my mum it is expensive. haha. i wonder if the durian tree at the back of my house can grow durian or not? haha. it's quite tall but not big enuf to grow fruits.

CNY.. please come fast fast. i wanna play again. ahha. the other day was fun. gaming till 3am. hahah. i can't wait to enjoy again. now everyone is having skul except me i guess. ahaha....