Wednesday, August 26, 2009
SB-800
Woot woot... my flash is coming. excited to try it out. can't wait. it's on the way. now, it is in Egypt. hahahaha. according to the FEDex tracking thingy, it in MEMPHIS. hahaha. i tot it is EGYPT. and i was curious. MEMPHIS, TN. wat is TN? then i go and search google map then i knw, it is still in US. hahahaha.. funny indeed. oh well.... expected delivery at 31 August. faster come.. hehe
ABCDE
Hmmm..... i have been wondering after awhile. i dun seem to be the same person like before. i used to be very hardworking and used to be able to study very hard. but now i have been slacking a lot. i think it was during SAM. haha. i still rmb how i actually gave up studying thinking dat no point becoz so many good students. haha. i guess this have to change. and i think there is a lot more that i need to change. my mindset
i have this fear in me...fear to hurt others. fear to hurt ppl's feeling. fear to make ppl sad or disappointed. and at times when i actually did dat or rather i feel dat i did dat, i really blame myself and i really put a lot of pressure upon myself. it is like bearing everything upon my very own shoulder and keep everything to myself. not letting others no fearing that i will hurt them i return for letting them know, as ppl will tend to care and concern. I have this mindset that it is better to bear everything in myself rather than letting others know. then, i won't risk hurting them and in return, blaming myself for it. no matter how hard it is, i tried to bear everything. and i think this mindset of keeping everything to myself actually influence my decision in all circumstances and situations.
in a sense, i tend to put on a mask and everything seem fine. and in the end, even i lied to myself. the truth is even hidden from my sight. and i don't realise it till i actually throw every thing aside and start to meditate and think about it. here is wat i learnt from combined CT meeting just ystdy
A - activation of event. When something happen....
B - believe. when something happen, we tend to create a mindset or start to assume things
C - Consequential emotions. then, watever that we feel will be affected by wat we believe
D - Dispute lies. we need to remove the lies or rather the things that is not right from our mind
E - effect. what is the effect of the removing of the virus?
i think this is a very good lesson indeed. and i think i was reminded by the fact that i need to start renewing my mind and myself. Let's start over again from a piece of white A4 paper.
many times watever that we do, most the time is because of wat is in our mind. sometimes we have concluded in our mind that this person cannot be helped, therefore we dun even bother to help the person. it can be as simple as when i was a kid, i hated mushroom and that mindset continues until i grew older. from that time onwards, i refuse to take mushroom until one day i was forced to eat it, and then i impression changes. it is not dat bad after all. n i think there is a lot of us are being ctrlled by our past too much, either the lies or the false mindset. there is a need to start anew.
^.^
i have this fear in me...fear to hurt others. fear to hurt ppl's feeling. fear to make ppl sad or disappointed. and at times when i actually did dat or rather i feel dat i did dat, i really blame myself and i really put a lot of pressure upon myself. it is like bearing everything upon my very own shoulder and keep everything to myself. not letting others no fearing that i will hurt them i return for letting them know, as ppl will tend to care and concern. I have this mindset that it is better to bear everything in myself rather than letting others know. then, i won't risk hurting them and in return, blaming myself for it. no matter how hard it is, i tried to bear everything. and i think this mindset of keeping everything to myself actually influence my decision in all circumstances and situations.
in a sense, i tend to put on a mask and everything seem fine. and in the end, even i lied to myself. the truth is even hidden from my sight. and i don't realise it till i actually throw every thing aside and start to meditate and think about it. here is wat i learnt from combined CT meeting just ystdy
A - activation of event. When something happen....
B - believe. when something happen, we tend to create a mindset or start to assume things
C - Consequential emotions. then, watever that we feel will be affected by wat we believe
D - Dispute lies. we need to remove the lies or rather the things that is not right from our mind
E - effect. what is the effect of the removing of the virus?
i think this is a very good lesson indeed. and i think i was reminded by the fact that i need to start renewing my mind and myself. Let's start over again from a piece of white A4 paper.
many times watever that we do, most the time is because of wat is in our mind. sometimes we have concluded in our mind that this person cannot be helped, therefore we dun even bother to help the person. it can be as simple as when i was a kid, i hated mushroom and that mindset continues until i grew older. from that time onwards, i refuse to take mushroom until one day i was forced to eat it, and then i impression changes. it is not dat bad after all. n i think there is a lot of us are being ctrlled by our past too much, either the lies or the false mindset. there is a need to start anew.
^.^
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Hmmm...wat is next??
Been experimenting on my camera for quite some time. so happy. hehe. thinking of getting something next. a new lens? or flash? haha. no idea. but i tried putting in my mum's old flash and wow...i can use it. canon flash on nikon camera. but of coz, dat flash is super old lo. haha. very very old. but i like the sound of it when it is charging up. hahaha. but slow le. thinking of something interesting next. hehe..
at the mean time, MCF and pasta night is over. phew...a tiring week indeed. i nvr made so so so so so much tau foo fa before in my whole life. i think first day we use about 4 kg of soya bean, and the second day is 3 kg. haha. we earn quite a lot but yeah...very hard to sell. wat to do..it is winter and my tau foo fa need to remain cold. haha. but got a lot of ppl that like my tau foo fa. the last day is the best. the soften and the smoothest i would say. haha. we also sell onde onde, cambodian dessert and soya bean milk.
pasta night...a lot of ppl turn up. beyond my expectation. haha. interesting day indeed.
hmmmm..i should post some pics here. here i present, pasta night and MCF!!!
Preparation the night before Pasta Night
a lot a lot of pasta....
look at the amount of ppl
Oh my...hugging one another??
looks like we have a promoter
at the mean time, MCF and pasta night is over. phew...a tiring week indeed. i nvr made so so so so so much tau foo fa before in my whole life. i think first day we use about 4 kg of soya bean, and the second day is 3 kg. haha. we earn quite a lot but yeah...very hard to sell. wat to do..it is winter and my tau foo fa need to remain cold. haha. but got a lot of ppl that like my tau foo fa. the last day is the best. the soften and the smoothest i would say. haha. we also sell onde onde, cambodian dessert and soya bean milk.
pasta night...a lot of ppl turn up. beyond my expectation. haha. interesting day indeed.
hmmmm..i should post some pics here. here i present, pasta night and MCF!!!
Preparation the night before Pasta Night
a lot a lot of pasta....
look at the amount of ppl
Oh my...hugging one another??
looks like we have a promoterMCF!!!!
80 Tau foo fa here
Our counter
Our Tau foo fa the best
80 Tau foo fa here
Our counter
Our Tau foo fa the bestWednesday, July 22, 2009
It has ended
It has ended... after almost 3 years. Things have changed. I still rmb how it began, how it prolong, how it lasted. I still rmb the things that were done, things that happened in between. they all remain as memories. memories of the past, but hope for the future. There is no nid to explain, coz it is pointless. there is not a need to understand everything, because it has come to this point whereby things are hard to perceive. we probably can never und the whole thing. but my wish is that there will be a better future, a hope that never dim. I wish for a greater blessing upon you. i know probably this doesn't mean anything, but this is wat i wish for. there is a reason for everything, and i have yet to find out. i always believe that. and i will continue seek for an answer.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Nikon D5000
Woot woot... gotten my new D5000. so happy with it. hehe. can play and take a lot of pics with it. hehe. it cost me AUD1100 with bag, 18-55mm lens, UV filter, polaroid filter, extra battery. yay!! this is so cool. but i want d90. oh well...play with this first. then slowly slowly build up. my bro suddenly wanted a DSLR as well. so interesting. i asked him and he said that he seen his fren took pics very nice. haha. from now on, the virus will slowly spread. hahaha... slowly learning bit by bit how to use this camera. i chuck the manual aside and just experiment with it. haha. this is so interesting. mayb i should put some pics here as samples. hehe
Monday, July 6, 2009
Updates updates
It has been quite some time since i blogged. haha. hmmm...counting the days, it's only 7 days of my holidays. i nvr know time passes by so slow. Oh well... internet broke down and running very very slow and i can't load a lot of pages. so, i din even bother to check blogs and write anything.
I will be going adelaide from tmr till 13th. going on a road trip to kangaroo island where all the kangaroos will see me. lol.
hmmm.... in the first place, i m actually interested in getting this nikon d90 camera. thinking and considering the fact that it is AUD500 more expensive compared to the Nikon d5000, well i will settle with d5000. Don't think i can vomit out dat AUD500 for much better camera. lol.
well, this will be starting point and there will be better camera out there dat will follow this master next time, so, be patient. lol.
getting cough and dunno wat other illness will fall upon me. haha. oh well, i should enjoy. mayb i got it from someone. so sudden sick. just this very morning. haha.
and oh yah, i m applying for industrial training. need to complete my resume soon. gonna be a busy holiday with my new camera hoping to arrive here in melb. i better decide soon ^_^
I will be going adelaide from tmr till 13th. going on a road trip to kangaroo island where all the kangaroos will see me. lol.
hmmm.... in the first place, i m actually interested in getting this nikon d90 camera. thinking and considering the fact that it is AUD500 more expensive compared to the Nikon d5000, well i will settle with d5000. Don't think i can vomit out dat AUD500 for much better camera. lol.
well, this will be starting point and there will be better camera out there dat will follow this master next time, so, be patient. lol.
getting cough and dunno wat other illness will fall upon me. haha. oh well, i should enjoy. mayb i got it from someone. so sudden sick. just this very morning. haha.
and oh yah, i m applying for industrial training. need to complete my resume soon. gonna be a busy holiday with my new camera hoping to arrive here in melb. i better decide soon ^_^
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Exam time to day dreaming... i m taking over the world
exam is going on. for me...i m more on FB game to release stress. lol. but one down, 3 more to go. spending time in com lab to study. why i go com lab? they have just started construction at the empty land near my house. no more shortcut, and noise increase daily. lol. so, have to seek refuge in com lab. hehe. good also le. faster conenction. dunno why the connection suddenly exceeded. RAWR. oh well... happen not timely. no idea wat happened. wanna look for important things also hard.
24th is coming soon, and a VIP is coming. need to prepare for her coming. and come timely as well. can take care of me, the VVIP. LOL!! at the same time, this VIP is enjoying her holiday. no more exam n i juz only done one paper, she done 5!! hmmmmppphhh.... nvm... muz make full use of ppl without exam. >.<
atm, destressing by playing FB a lot. even my sister ask me to stop (her real intention is so dat she can beat me in dat game. lol. not sincere to stop me also) haha...
one tough paper coming up, computing. programming n so on. theory more, which is wat i dun really like as well. oh well....better than writing the code =p
but i really was amazed and happy when i do tutorial questions and past year, i began to understand wat is going on and wat i was "supposed" to be learning for 12 weeks =p
for the first paper, i did reading and finished it 2 days before my exam. and then, i did tutorial. my fren was asking me, why now only u start. quite late. i was like, are u serious. and they said, it takes me 4-5 weeks to finish up n understand the tutorial. i was like T_T and demoralized. no peace at heart and feel like knocking my head on the wall. but it's okie. although felt very restless, i managed to finish it within 1.5 days. hahahaha. so happy. i at last understand a lot of stuff that i was supposed to knw. hahahaha. it is like miracles. ^_^
dats why i hate studying in the beginning, doing something u dunno and dun und. and u dun find the relevance in studying dat.
oh... i have tot of this thingy about studying. we students study a lot and watever we study, MOST PROBABLY not applicable in ur future career. haha. well, wat is the meaning of studying dat way, taking exam and scoring high and not using it in the future. haha. when i think about it, unless i want to teach and be a lecturer, then i will continue my studies. but since i realise this, no point of me continuing. i dun wanna study. and of coz, i dun wanna waste time. i dun wanna be the person who waste ppl's time (students who will eventually understood my theory) as well. haha. so, i dun think i wanna do master or PHD. really waste of time eh. why education system is like dat? like, not really applicable. not application wise. not a good lesson. cannot apply in real life. if only there is more practical, like doing REAL stuff. haha. oh well... i can always sell tau foo fa and some other stuff =P
this degree perhaps as a backup plan for me. hahahaha. then soon, we will see Calvin's Dessert House operating all over Clayton, Glen Waverley and some say in Caufield. hahahahaha.... i will make tortoise as mascott. then my degree is really wasted. my mum said this to me when i actually suggesting to her wat i plan to do, "u crazy ar? go n waste ur time get this degree and then go into business field". i was telling her if i fail in business, at least i got this degree. haha. can go and work in engineering field again. who knows, mayb i earn enuf can own Petronas or watsoever engineering company. ^_^ then i can take over the world
starting from Calvin's Dessert House to engineering company, then make GUNDAMs and robots, then take over the world. wahahahahahahahahaha.... ^_^ such a good dream shall not be thrown into dustbin. hehe...
24th is coming soon, and a VIP is coming. need to prepare for her coming. and come timely as well. can take care of me, the VVIP. LOL!! at the same time, this VIP is enjoying her holiday. no more exam n i juz only done one paper, she done 5!! hmmmmppphhh.... nvm... muz make full use of ppl without exam. >.<
atm, destressing by playing FB a lot. even my sister ask me to stop (her real intention is so dat she can beat me in dat game. lol. not sincere to stop me also) haha...
one tough paper coming up, computing. programming n so on. theory more, which is wat i dun really like as well. oh well....better than writing the code =p
but i really was amazed and happy when i do tutorial questions and past year, i began to understand wat is going on and wat i was "supposed" to be learning for 12 weeks =p
for the first paper, i did reading and finished it 2 days before my exam. and then, i did tutorial. my fren was asking me, why now only u start. quite late. i was like, are u serious. and they said, it takes me 4-5 weeks to finish up n understand the tutorial. i was like T_T and demoralized. no peace at heart and feel like knocking my head on the wall. but it's okie. although felt very restless, i managed to finish it within 1.5 days. hahahaha. so happy. i at last understand a lot of stuff that i was supposed to knw. hahahaha. it is like miracles. ^_^
dats why i hate studying in the beginning, doing something u dunno and dun und. and u dun find the relevance in studying dat.
oh... i have tot of this thingy about studying. we students study a lot and watever we study, MOST PROBABLY not applicable in ur future career. haha. well, wat is the meaning of studying dat way, taking exam and scoring high and not using it in the future. haha. when i think about it, unless i want to teach and be a lecturer, then i will continue my studies. but since i realise this, no point of me continuing. i dun wanna study. and of coz, i dun wanna waste time. i dun wanna be the person who waste ppl's time (students who will eventually understood my theory) as well. haha. so, i dun think i wanna do master or PHD. really waste of time eh. why education system is like dat? like, not really applicable. not application wise. not a good lesson. cannot apply in real life. if only there is more practical, like doing REAL stuff. haha. oh well... i can always sell tau foo fa and some other stuff =P
this degree perhaps as a backup plan for me. hahahaha. then soon, we will see Calvin's Dessert House operating all over Clayton, Glen Waverley and some say in Caufield. hahahahaha.... i will make tortoise as mascott. then my degree is really wasted. my mum said this to me when i actually suggesting to her wat i plan to do, "u crazy ar? go n waste ur time get this degree and then go into business field". i was telling her if i fail in business, at least i got this degree. haha. can go and work in engineering field again. who knows, mayb i earn enuf can own Petronas or watsoever engineering company. ^_^ then i can take over the world
starting from Calvin's Dessert House to engineering company, then make GUNDAMs and robots, then take over the world. wahahahahahahahahaha.... ^_^ such a good dream shall not be thrown into dustbin. hehe...
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